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You made me cry at 9:50:00 pm | Whitepony that dropped by..

Yes I know my title is a little too long. But I guess I really want to send out that message. My second entry of the day. Today I'm just in for words.


Everyone is changing. Honestly, I've changed drastically over the holidays. For good or bad, you judge. We just got to learn how to accept facts of life. I'm not sure if those issues on air are fully my fault. If they are, I'm ready to take full responsibility and face the consequences. Sometimes, they are not your fault and you're perpetually blamed for it. Can be rather upsetting. There are many kinds of characters in human that are already within them that it stays for life.

I just hope that '07 will be a better year where I can finally see the sun after many unknowning rainy days. Sometimes, we just got to stop putting a smile on our face. If you're nice, you deserve a better treatment. Goodnight.

Take good care of yourself when I'm not around(Love! Love!).

You made me cry at 8:44:00 pm | Whitepony that dropped by..

Well, how did I spend my Chritsmas? Like you know that's like on everyone's latest entry. I tell you, it's on Fel's blog, Rev's blog and many more. Of course I don't do blog hop but I do update myself with those close ones(AT TIMES!).


And so, Bebe, her sister, her parents went for Midnight Mass and I accompanied her. It was so packed that we had to stand. After that Bebe and I found ourselves at Pre-Rouge. We had the thickest cheese pizza ever! And we walked down to Catay Cineplex to watch DeathNote 2 at the GRAND CATAY! Wheee! It was my first time watching a movie there and I was given the best theatre.


Okay to those Jap fan, you might want to catch it but to me, the verdict of the story was expected and rather boring? Thanked God I didn't have that long to catch the 2nd part of the movie. DeathNote was release early November if I'm not wrong.


OH! I watched The Holiday with Bebe, Sal and her boyfriend on Saturday. It is indeed another great movie for Christmas. Last year was The Family Stone starring Rachel McAdams, SJP(Sarah Jessica Parker) and many more. Well, I can't wait for next year's Christmas already.


And on Christmas day, Bebe and I had dinner with her friends. We had dinner with Yu Zheng, Jiahui, Ashley and Serene at Changing Appetites, Marina Sq. The food quality dropped, the services was so slow but nevertheless, I did enjoy. Bebe was super crappy and lame. God knows why? But she did add on to the laughters on the table. At least last night, I could smile before I sleep.


It doesn't matter where you spent your Christmas at, what matters most is who was presence.
As for me, I had the best christmas for 2 years. Last year was one of the sweet years. Bebe surprised me(though I've alr know) with a new hp because my previous hp died on me! And I couldn't sleep the whole night because I was meddling with it. And this year, she gave me a COACH wallet. See, it is just getting better!


It is the time of the year where reflection takes in. Perhaps in a day or 2, I'll do my reflections. Too many events happened this year. Some, unfortunate? Some are just too sweet to forget.


PS: I know the picture is not relevant to my entry. SO?

You made me cry at 3:00:00 pm | Whitepony that dropped by..

I think I've been dreaming a lot lately. First, I want to be 30 yrs old as soon as possible. Why not? Okay, perhaps 28 yrs old is the MAX. I just want to quickly get a proper job, do well in my career and then study and explore round the world for life. Maybe at certain age, there's a different way of enjoying life. I don't want to settle down for a family for sure. Says who homosexuals can't get married?


Anyway, since my N's was my wake up call, I shall study harder next year. The geeky Rara is coming back. And I'm turning 17 soon. And it is my 5th year next year. I swear I'm just going to say I'm in my final year if they were to ask what I'm doing. Year 4 sounds okay but not for year 5. Quite weird to say it out. Perhaps it is because I'm not used to it. I bought my books today and I shall start mugging soon. Was so into Mathematics just now.


Oh yes, my birthday falls on a Tuesday. Just like 17 years ago. Hehe. And when I'm 18, just nice. I can join in for Mambo night at Zouk(: and finally going in LEGALLY.





I'll make you the best hot cocoa.



VAN! TROH! Meet up soon! Gonna miss my homotalk during recess! ):


PS: Here's something I must hear if I accidentally find myself at Zouk on Wednesday nights.

You made me cry at 11:25:00 pm | Whitepony that dropped by..

The only thing that I want to complain is the RAIN! The last time I went for christmas shopping also rained. I'm like super pissed off with the rain. Just hope it won't rain tomorrow so that I can eat my sushi. Anyway, I bought Bebe her present and some presents for myself too! As you all can see, Bebe bought me a Coach wallet. Don't ask what I bought for her. It is 4 times cheaper! Anyway, I was walking in the rain non stop as usual from 1 building to another. This time, Vivo City comes in handy.

I bought Marks & Spencer undies!!(:
I think the sales girl recognise me. The last time I came was just last week when I bought 3 undies again too.


And tried my luck by going in Flash & Splash. Though I hate that shop but I don't know why I came out buying this! Good for tanning and it matches when I wear t-shirt and denim shorts.


On the other hand, Bebe was at Raffles City(LIAR! TOLD ME SHE O.T UNTIL 9 PLUS!) and bought me the wallet and a polo tee for her from Tommy Hilfiger!


After that I head down to her place to have dinner. (:
That's how my wet day ended.
Goodnights!

You made me cry at 1:48:00 am | Whitepony that dropped by..

My first Coach Wallet from Bebe!

I called it COCO.


And say good bye to Roxy. But she'll be back. What I love abt Roxy is that I can see Bebe in my wallet. Ohwells, out with the old and in with the new. Though COCO is not from my wishlist, I still love it!

THANK YOU BEBE!

You made me cry at 1:28:00 am | Whitepony that dropped by..

You know, I didn't do well for my N's. Therefore I decided to drown myself with fashion websites. Okay, so far I've surfed Oakley and Coach. And since Christmas is coming, I shall try making myself happy by coming up with my own wishlist.





1) More cute, pretty and sexy girl boxers or underwear from Marks & Spencer/ Women's secret/ Victoria's Secret(UK Size 8).

4) School Books.

3) Lamps but no space to put. I still have 1 lamp in a box(Don't see a need to get it).

4) Nice hair cut.

5) Coach Signature Beaded Wristlet(Don't see a need to get it).

6) More wrapping papers and ribbons from Ikea/Paperchase/ Art Friend
(this makes a perfect gift for Christmas for me!!!!).

7) Gossips Girls(recommended by Rev though I've alr know abt it).


8) G Star, Levis and RL jeans & Vintage dress.

9) To lose more weight.

10) Stop raining for a day so that I can visit the giraffes in the zoological garden at Mandai.




YAY! I'll see you all next year in YEAR 5!




Oh ya, I hate the rain. Super annoying.

You made me cry at 3:13:00 pm | Whitepony that dropped by..

You made me cry at 1:25:00 am | Whitepony that dropped by..

You made me cry at 3:09:00 pm | Whitepony that dropped by..

Sometimes, some things are just not meant to be yours.
... it is time to let go after having it for quite some time.
... there are some things cannot be kept to you forever.
... you wonder if you're making the right decision.

Once made, you either





Sometimes, you wonder if you should give up after going through all the hurdles.
Sometimes, these things gives you sleepless nights.


I wonder..
Upon hearing You Are Loved by Josh Groban repeatedly, I really don't want to give up after what we've both gone through.
At times I wonder if I'm forcing her to stay for my own needs.
Yes, I need her.


I don't know what to respond every time she gives me those on and off cold treatment.
When darkness falls, I have to be prepared.
At most times, I end up ending my day in tears.
But I'm asking for it.
I ought not to complain.

Should I ever go anytime, I just want to apologise to Her and everyone for being such a burden in your life. I've regreted for commiting those mistakes and tried to turn change.

But God didn't allow me.
While I'm here trying to change, big challenges ahead.


Today's msg: Once yours, treasure it. But don't hold on to it too tightly.

You made me cry at 11:18:00 am | Whitepony that dropped by..

We met up for lunch. Then all of us went separate ways. I? I decided to drop by town for awhile for a Christmas shopping. Everyone was shopping for Christmas too. Walked and walked and walked to look for Revathi a present. She is so skinny that I couldn't find her size. There were so many nice punk rock pieces that I wanted to buy. All are of her favourite colour(currently). But there was no size for her. At last, I found something close to those punk rockers. I just hope Revathi will like it. It took me hours to find the perfect gift. I was dashing across the road from one building to another soaked in wet with my birkenstock feeling cocky. So I hoped she'll like it. She better wear it!!!


Reporting on Rara's health.
I am dying I tell you. Seriously, dying. Revathi was sick today too. Her performance is tomorrow. All the best Babe! She could tell that I was sick too. I've been having dry cough and flu and my liver hurts. Not only that today, I came home feeling nauseous and vomitted the pizza we had. Yesterday, it was goodbye to Ice Cream and Fried Rice. Today, it was goodbye to Pizza.



Ps: Visit me in my Kovan house. Apt Blk 170, Ward #02-1485, Corner room.




That's why I'm home early from town. I'm sick!

You made me cry at 6:59:00 pm | Whitepony that dropped by..

Sometimes I just hate being a woman.
Seriously, I'm just someone stucked in a woman's body and was forced to act like a woman.
Why do woman have PMS?
I swear it is killing me. Sometimes, I just wish I don't have to go through all these.
After PMS, menopause. Oh man.. What's next?

At home, my mom is killing me.
In my corner, my body and emotions are killing me.
Oh gosh..

Anyway, this weekend is going to be a busy weekend for me.
Bebe and I are going JB on Friday then head down to Gas Haus for Rev's performance.
I'm sure it is going to be another wonderful weekend with Bebe.



That means 5 more days to RESULTS!
I can't wait to see my friends and of course I don't wish to see my results slip.


Pls baby, pls call me and ask how is it?
And if you're going to see me, bring a pack of tissue and cellphone.
I might jump off the school building if I flunk!

You made me cry at 4:34:00 pm | Whitepony that dropped by..

HELLO! I'm back!!! Had great time there. I went kayaking and parasailing. Played with the monkey. Sunburnt! Seriously red nose. Love the weather and the people. And now I can strike out travelling after my N level. Thanks Bebe!! This is definitely one of the best present ever. The next time we're going to Batam, we're going for the cable ski.



To kepo around my trip:


click here.

You made me cry at 11:19:00 pm | Whitepony that dropped by..

I was really depressed today. In face since last night.
And today, I got cheated by my uncle who initially promised me to drive me to Adam Hospital to visit Ren.
I cried the whole day.
Anyway, I told Bebe I was crying and she called me and took the initiative to fetch me home from Kerrisdale.
And guess what? I was at the pool waiting for her sitting on the bench and she came with ROO!
Seeing her and Roo just enlighten my day. (:
And then we walked to Mustafa and bought my rabbit food plus few other stuff.
I felt so much better when I end my day with her by my side.
Now, my sleeping children are Teddy, Moo Moo and Roo!

Bebe, you've been the sweetest of all and I hoped you like the lacoste towel. I know getting a towel is so random. haha. I Love Roo, of course!! Thank you so much for brightening up my darkest day. Thank you so much for Roo.

*Imported from UK. Currently, Roo's feeling really dizzy because of the bumpy ride.

You made me cry at 12:12:00 am | Whitepony that dropped by..

For the past few weeks I've been reading my personal diary.
And today, I've decided to read her blog.
When I read those entries I wrote while I was at Kerrisdale all alone, I felt so bad.
I teared with full of regrets. I was so selfish to myself.
Wanted everything to my own needs.
At that time, I couldn't feel her love until we broke up. It was true what people said.
You will only treasure that person when you've lost him/her.
Bebe has played an important role in my life.
Every night I would tear out of sorrows during that 3 months of being single.
I became vulnerable when I was alone. I know that she wanted me back but I just couldn't bring myself to be with her.
I took pills like nobody's business.
Smoked secretly.
Drinked in the middle of the night.
I almost lost her. It was only then I decided to wake up.
It was really late, I guess.
I crave for her presence every night. Ego me. I didn't contact her and chose to ignore her.
She helped me in many ways.


I love bebe because she is always there for me.
When I had bad times with my family, she held a helping hand.
She would listen to all my pain.
She would buy me my favourite food especially when I crave for them.
I still remember, she went to J8, Bishan to get pop corns so that we could watch Notebook at home.
But I got so pissed when she said that she won't be staying over. And we end up not eating the pop corns and argued.
That was my biggest mistake made.


I love bebe because she is the sweetest person ever.
She will try means and ways to make me happy.
One time I lost my wallet in the cab and she bought me a wallet with a cookie to cheer me up.
And I'm still using it. She calmed me down when I had a big fight at Orchard Hotel with that Algae.
But we end up having great time after Algae left.
That's because she was there for me.



She came down all the way from NTU to look after me the whole night when I was having high fever because I had a major paper the next day.
The sweetest thing ever was that she was studying while I was in bed and she ordered MacDonald's breakfast before taking her nap. And she even cooked for me salmon scallop porridge the next day.
She will always support whatever decision I made.
When I told her I wanted to be a pharmacist, she was happy for me.


The cutest thing was when we bought each other crumpler bag for Valentine's and she made a book for me(101 things why I love you). Every night, I would read a line before heading to bed.
And released helium balloons at Raffles The Plaza Hotel, Alligator Pool.
She tries to spice up this r/s by bringing me to Batam for our 18th month this Sat.
She always come over my place without complaining though there's a bitch in the hse.
She will satisfy my needs.

08.12.05

Bebe brought me to watch Snow Queen at esplanade and we went party at Zouk. She suprised me la!


During those 3 months, I abandoned her.
I left her.
I made her cry for many nights.
Made her waited for me.


Sometimes, it is just too late.
Now that I'm awake and try to make up for all those horrible nights, she can't love me as much as she did.
I'm sorry baby.

I Love You And Always Will.




Goodnight and off to shower then concuss.

You made me cry at 1:54:00 am | Whitepony that dropped by..